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[ 11/18/2009 ] |
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Today, I found out that I need a knee replacement. NOT REALLY. I kind of just decided that because I got to run a cool five miles - merely a taste of the winter training to come - and died. No big. I hate how they do that to us though. They just throw us into running these epic distances. For the most part, I think I've learned to control my breathing and not freak out about it and I can actually get through a run just fine. In fact, today I finished before two of my varsity teammates and then like, six of the novies. It's the aftermath that really blows hard though. My calves become rigid and I basically lose my ability to walk like a normal human being. Also, this time, my left kneecap decided it was time to head off to fucking Swaziland and elope or something which inhibits my walking ability 64 times more.
In other non-crew-related news, I am four classes, one practice, and two lifts away from the Thanksgiving break. Hallelujah (say that one out loud for me Mollie). I am so delighted to head home, look at my littenlove square in the eyeballs, reconnect with my bed... hopefully we still share that same connection... watch indescribable amounts of HGTV shows, eat quantities of food comparable to the size of a small infant (at each meal), umm... see some pretty (and not so pretty) faces (and souls). Yes, I am coming for your soul. I have no idea what I'm talking about. I'm like, madd delusional and tired.
Also, the Oxford dictionary named "unfriend" the word of the year. Oxford defines "unfriend," a verb, thusly: "To remove someone as a 'friend' on a social networking site such as Facebook." I didn't really find this surprising or anything. What I did find surprising/silly though was the debate between whether or not the verb should be to "unfriend" or to "defriend". People are really passionate about this stuff, man. The rage that some people display is so silly and over the top for no reason. Maybe I'm just bias though because I believe that "unfriend" is more widely present in my life. Perhaps if "defriend" were being named the word of the year, I would be OUTRAGED. Anyway, I just found this fascinating and thought I would share it with those of you who hadn't already heard. Which of the two words do you use/hear more frequently?
Some other things that I can't talk about or else I'll go to hell. Yeah, life is good.
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[ 11/08/2009 ] |
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I hereby dub this past week the longest week at Ithaca ever. I think the reason that Monday - Friday felt so long was because I had to wake up at 5 everyday for practice. What a miserable concept. Naturally, this weekend was a lot cooler and therefore had to be a lot faster just to spite me. Oh well. Two weeks until Thanksgiving break now. I still have morning practice for another week and races both Saturday and Sunday of next though. I'm not sure how I'll survive.
Last night, I was invited to go out to dinner with a bunch of people for my friends Mario's birthday, and so I accepted. We were supposed to go to this place called Mahogany Grill which sounded all nice to me. Dumbbutts don't realize that it's Saturday night in Ithaca and parents weekend nonetheless and that seven of us are clearly not going to be able to get a table. So, once that failed, they decide that it would be a good idea to go to this sushi place and I was all like, oh shiiiiit because sushi really isn't my thing. I didn't want to be a bitch and complain about it though so I was bold and ate it. Some of it actually wasn't all that bad while others made me gag because it felt like I was chewing a raw chunk of fish meat... probably because I was.
Later on, I ventured off to my crew semi-formal. Aka, 300 people (crew members and their dates) dressed up nicely, cramming into this inferno of a house, and getting wildly sloshed. It was thoroughly entertaining. What always particularly amuses me is how many people decide that we're best friends and can talk to me for the first time in their lives when their drunk.
me & my sexaay date.
joe bags, me, & lauren
i feel like i'm giving or should be giving the middle finger
my boy bretty brett bustin' a move
a sea of humans (lol at that girl's face)
crew fraaaaanz. (EXCEPT NICK who's a puss and quit)
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[ 10/25/2009 ] |
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I have such an urge to shop. It's running through me like soup and there's nothing I can do about it. I guess that's why I write, instead, to you, journal. Since my march to Massachusetts, my bank statement has read -$1.40. And for those avid readers out there, I'll have you know that THAT is, in fact, all of the money that I have in my entire life. I am negative money. This just does not permit me so many things that I desire.
I.E. exotic vacations, halloween costumes, halloween pumpkins, spooky halloween journeys, halloween movies, a new wardrobe, additional room decor, additional plush bedding, aaaaaaaaaaaaand the money for my Bike and Build application, WHICH my mother surprisingly brought up in conversation today after hearing about it from my sister. I guess what was actually surprising was that she was so mega supportive of it.
I wonder how my sister explained it to her, because I feel like had I been the one to break the news of my interest in such an ambitious venture, that she would have exploded with apprehension. I think, though, that by telling my sister and not her, she probably caught on to my apprehension in telling her and then just for the sake of being contradictory, she had to be supportive/she also had the time to absorb and actually understand the idea before immediately going all berserk and contradictory on my ass but in the wrong way.
It frustrates me, sometimes, that both my mom and my sister have this impulsive reaction to oppose anything grand and awesome that I want to do before hearing me out. Like, when I initially told my sister about Bike and Build, she laughed at me and was all like, "YEAH, OKAY". And I'm all like, bitch give me five because I'm about to destroy you. And once I went on about how insanely kick-ass it would be for me and the world, she was all about it. The thing of it is though, is that I think the pair of them are just like that because they never put themselves out there and got to experience awesome things for themselves, and as a result, they naturally want to hate on the cool things that I'm doing in my life. How many times before you learn though? I mean it's like, time and time again, I prove you wrong. You should know by now that I don't do silly things or make silly mistakes or jump into anything without thinking it through.
Well, this post turn quite the unexpected turn. I hope I don't sound ungrateful, or selfish, or unloving. I really do appreciate my girls and they pretty much always have my back... eventually. Anyway, I want to shop. And I leave you with this hit: www.youtube.com/watch
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| genesee, lucky me, mollie |
[ 10/13/2009 ] |
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Sunday, I rowed in The Head of the Genesee in Rochester. There were 27 boats in the race. My team got 10th, 17th, and 24th overall. Not too bad, I guess. Fall races are kind of meaningless anyway. It was a really exhausting day nonetheless. Last night, I stayed at my lovers place, and then today, Im pretty sure I had one of those days where I just got so lucky with everything. Like, Im 90% sure I got an A on my first test of the semester which I took today and didn't study too much for/lucked into some extra study time right before the test because our coxswain meeting got canceled. Then, I had a midterm in another class right after which I hadn't studied for at all but my test only took 30 minutes so it gave me an unexpected 50 minutes to study for the midterm. I feel like the CJ gods are on my side or something, because as much as I feel like I hate school and don't belong in classes and stuff and don't to ANYTHING, I always somehow manage to get by and sometimes even do really well without trying at all. It's really nice too because I hate stressing out about school because I don't think it's worth it and I just refuse to. I think that attitude kind of works for me though... magically.
I am now one paper and one class away from FALL BREAK. Haaaaaaylz yeah. In 24 hours from now, I will be with or close to Emily at Wheaton hopefully having grand ol' times! And then then then MOLLIE! I hope it's warmer in Boston. so stoked.
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[ 10/04/2009 ] |
well friends, ive officially been sick for seven whole days in a row now. this illness has provided me with a good deal of weird, groggy, emotional time to think about things. one of the things ive been attacking with my brain is this twisted line between youth and adulthood. like, i really just want to be young and hot and carefree and have fun forever.
ughhhh. i can't explain my thoughts right now. maybe ill finish this some other time. or maybe you can finish it for me.
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[ 09/29/2009 ] |
last weekend:
- apple fest with anthony
- galina's famous perogies
- 95% sure i was going to either get murdered or robbed at this
drive up atm when this man approached my window
- i was pretty sure i got a job at this new pizza place
- the dood from the pizza place hasn't called me though
- now im not so sure
- got challenged to and participated in a pie making contest
- it rained a lot
- some other stuff
this coming weekend:
- race at hobart, im coxing for the first time ever. what.
- the people next door to me will stop having excessive amounts of sex
or i will send begin sending them hate mail... if that doesn't work, ill
have to resort to more drastic measures
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[ 09/29/2009 ] |
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in a most exciting turn of events...!
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[ 09/10/2009 ] |
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Today was kind of painful. I did not want to wake up for my 1050 this morning. More importantly, I didn't want to go because I was ill-prepared due to my financial issues and lack of textbooks until yesterday. So we had this quiz on the first two chapters of our text (60 something pages entirely in Spanish about Latin American civilization and culture). Awesome. Like, sure I had the book yesterday, but there was no way in hell that I was going to even pretend to read those pages and retain any knowledge. I wouldn't have been capable of doing that in English.
I sort of mentally revived myself in my next two classes by contributing and knowing things about stuff. These Tuesday/Thursday classes are death in a coffin though, for realio. I really just don't have the mental capacity to sit there and listen to people drone on about things I don't care about for these extended periods of time. It's brutal. Ive been noting my change in behavior throughout. It goes a little something like this:
Class 1, CJ zones out, tired and lifeless.
Class 2, CJ wakes up and actively contributes.
Class 3, CJ starts to go insane, becomes weird, and says funny things out loud.
After that, I headed straight to practice WHICH WAS FLIPPINGEGGSCELLENT. It was actually so much more intense than Im used to but I had this boiling insanity/energy inside of me that carried over from class that I totally channeled into my oar. It was like, the perfect day for it too because we did a 12 minute piece, a 20 minute piece, and an 8 minute piece. INSAAAANE. The REAL kicker, is that I was naturally in the mostly "lightweight" boat which is expected to get creamed by the big guns, HOWEVER, we pretty much smoked em' all every piece. We were literally holding off the boat that had our senior, big shot captains and jacked dudes. Twas' sheer excellence.
AND NOW THURSDAY IS OVER, TGTIFO. (thankgodthursdayisfuckingover) TOMORROW IS EASY FRIDAY, AND THIS WEEKEND, I HAVE FOUR SOFTBALL GAMES. FOUR! FOUR FOUR FOUR FOUR FOUR. IM WAY TOO, NO, I AM JUST THE RIGHT AMOUNT OF EXCITED. HOLLERRRRR.
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[ 09/07/2009 ] |
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This weekend was decent. On Friday, I watched Sweeney Todd and ordered Insomnia Cookies with Kay and Andi. Saturday, I guess I didn't do much during the day. At night, I went to Anthony's to play Guitar Hero for a while. Sunday, I played tennis with Anthony. He's not as bad as some people that I have had unpleasant experiences with lately, but he is also not nearly up to my level. Perhaps if we keep playing, he will improve? Either way, it was fun and he tries at least. So then Sunday night, I went to his place again. A bunch of the guys from the team were playing a drinking game while watching Planet Earth... which is kind of hilarious to me because of how nerdy that sounds. They were drinking every time Sigourney Weaver mispronounced "water" and a bunch of other shit. Even though I don't drink, that kind of thing is way more up my alley than going to some insanely crowded party where there are shit tons of people that you don't even know being ridiculous. It was also really cool because all the guys that were there were juniors and seniors from the team that Ive never really talked to before. The reason for this being that our novice and varsity teams kind of do their own thing... but now I'm on varsity so knowing my new teammates will be good! Today, I had to lift for crew and Nick was making me push it so now I'm dead tired. I love labor day.
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[ 09/03/2009 ] |
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YESTERDAY morning at 5:45, I coxed my first eight! That was exciting and a really nice surprise to find out I didn't have to row at such absurd hours of the day.
ALSO, I finished Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets last night.
DOUBLE also, my friends are always busy with work and other weird things thus making me SO DARN BORED all the time.
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| money, money falling all a-round me. money, money far as i can see. ouuh yeah. show me the money. |
[ 09/01/2009 ] |
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ohmygod. I just went to this film screening for my Latino Literature class and it might possibly have been the worst film I have ever fallen asleep during in my entire life. It was 100 minutes but I just couldn't handle it so I totally left after the first hour. Whatever.
I updated my schedule again because I can't take these French classes because I am literally too poor to afford the books. Cool. Good thing there are some other factors that contribute to me not caring. Sometimes, I wish I had more control or at least knowledge of my own personal finances. It almost makes me feel guilty to be going to college because my mom is in a constant state of worry and sadness and crazy because we simply don't have the money for it. It's also really frustrating that I have to rely on other people and their credit scores and this thing and that in order to take out loans and other shit that I just don't even understand. I just feel like it's not fair for me to have to suffer because of other peoples mistakes; especially when Im somebody who doesn't make any significant mistakes myself.
Enough of that for now. I generally like to let other people do all of the stressing and the worrying anyway. No point in changing that now.
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[ 09/01/2009 ] |
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THIS morning was my first weight lifting sesh as a varsity crew member. Naturally, I was feeling gross because it was the morning and whatever but I didn't think I would actually barf. Then, I barfed. It's been a while so I was kind of like, weirded out by it. The rest of the day my stomach felt empty and weird and I refused to consume anything aside from water prior to dinner.
SO this afternoon at practice, I got to cox for the first time ever which was really convenient considering my bizarre illness. So I took a scull with these four guys. It was really kind of amusing to me because the coach literally just let me run free. He went off with the three eights and it was just me and my boat crusin' the inlet. Granted, it wasn't like I was completely clueless because Ive been in boats before and listen to coxswains all the time, but nonetheless, who am I to go off and navigate this boat through crowded waters? I guess I just kick that much ass. But it was thoroughly amusing because I was being funny and slightly confused at the whole situation and then I had this awesome kid who's one of our captains (Chris) in front of me and he was just going along with me being weird. Then we were all like, passing people and shit and making risky maneuvers in front of other crews to turn around and what not. Then I totally docked the boat like an old pro. Im really pleased with myself.
MY weekend was, unfortunately, not quite as exciting as I would have hoped. I got to Ithaca and it decided to instantly drop 20-30 degrees (it's 44 degrees at this hour). Additionally, it poured allllllllll weekend which made everything lame. I did, however, go all by my lonesome to play guitar hero on Sunday with Anthony and Walker (upper classmen on the team) and some of their friends. Ive known Anthony for a while but it was cool to branch out and associate with my new teammates and such.
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[ 08/30/2009 ] |
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Update: This includes my practice schedule.
M
7:00 - Morning Lift
12:00 - Spanish Conversation, Contemporary Issues
1:00 - Basic Tennis!
4:30 - Practice
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10:50 - Latin American Civilization and Culture
1:10 - Linguistics
2:35 - Intro to Latino Literature
4:30 - Practice
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5:45 - Morning Practice
12:00 - Spanish Conversation, Contemporary Issues
1:00 - Basic Tennis!
4:30 - Afternoon Lift
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10:50 - Latin American Civilization and Culture
1:10 - Linguistics
2:35 - Intro to Latino Literature
4:30 - Practice
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12:00 - Spanish Conversation, Contemporary Issues
4:30 - Practice
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9:00 - Captains Practice
Barferoni to you, crew. Hopefully if im lucky, ill be throwing a job into the mix soon too!
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| skewl, year tew. |
[ 08/29/2009 ] |
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So maybe now that im back at school, ill begin to journal more once again. Maybe not though.
The few days leading up to coming back here kind of freaked me out a little bit. It's the waiting and anticipating that really gets to me. I just like things to happen without thought or doubt otherwise it makes me uneasy. The moving in an decision making processes have happened for the most part and now im beginning to feel relaxed and comfortable once more.
My room really isn't so bad after all. The location on campus is convenient to classes and food and friends and my car and everything really. The size of it is comfortable and what Ive come to realize is that I actually have both sides of the room rather than just one. Now that may sound a bit silly but now that all four walls are mine, it's hit me. People who are in doubles don't have that luxery.
Oh, while im thinking of it, I should probably note how much I liked Inglourious Basterds. I liked it a lot. I was reading fan reviews before and getting so angry at what the haters were saying. I really don't like when people have different opinions than me about certain things. I mean, I like to keep an open mind and hear people out but I hate when people are overly opinionated but have absolutely no defense to back them up.
Im doing crew... for now. I struggled with that decision all summer long. Im pretty sure I was generally 60/40 in favor of not going back to the team. I talked to the varsity coach though and asked him what he thought I should do. What he told me was that I was a good rower and that he thought I should come back rowing and he would constantly let me know how I was doing. Then if he didn't see me rowing competitively, he would let me know and we could work something else out if I wanted (i.e coxing). So there you have it.
My first day of class, I learned that I am still a freshman. I was jabbing with my Spanish professor in Spanish and he was all like, "es su premier ano?" and i was all like, "no, es mi segundo ano". So after thinking it over, I realized that his records must indicate that I am a freshman because I only got 27 credits last year and you need 30 to be considered a sophomore! Who knew!
So because of crew, I had to drop a class and rethink a bunch of shit. Now, I think Im going to be taking 6 classes this semester instead of 4... not only to catch up but just because it kind of fell into my lap after talking to this crazy French woman. I love crazy French women. Im somehow now taking ONLY language classes which is kind of insane but I guess that's what I like?
My schedule will be like this provided all of my three overrides go through on Monday:
MWF
12:00 - Spanish Conversation, Contemporary Issues
1:00 - Elementary French 2
2:00 - Intermediate French 1
T/R
10:50 - Latin American Civilization and Culture
1:10 - Linguistics
2:35 - Intro to Latino Literature
Maybe Ill go make something out of my Saturday night now...
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[ 08/23/2009 ] |
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ithaca tomorrow!
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[ 08/02/2009 ] |
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back to school in three weeks. how soon that is.
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| i love kay |
[ 06/09/2009 ] |
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colorado in the am!
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